"C'est moi qui ai chassé les roses"
It was a strangely sad day. I did a shooting in the studio for about an hour creating things that were unexpected, when I realized at the end of the session that the film was not attached properly. Luckily It was a test, but there was this inevitable sadness of having created something that would never actually exist. A friend cheered me up by telling me that I should take that opportunity to repeat those shots and make them even better. I thought about it and actually he was right, I rescheduled those shots but I never made them again. That day I was so angry that I wanted to burn something and I thought of a phrase from "ete 90" that says "And if the sun shines on the others,I'll know I was the one who chased the roses". I bought a bunch of roses, went home and set up the set. Did you know that live flowers don't burn? I didn't, I had never thought about it, being wet it's impossible to burn them. But my desire to see that fire was so strong that I tried every way until I succeeded.
I set fire to something that never burns, but I couldn't destroy those flowers that are still at home.
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by emotions and I just want to let it all go away, but with time I realized that the only way I can feel better is to face them. If I'm sad I have to live that sadness and if I need to cry I need to do it.
I took this picture several weeks ago and I think it's one of my favorites of the last year, I was afraid to share it because even though it's not my face, it's absolutely one of the most honest self-portraits I could take. I never thought that fire could be my element, but in the last year there is absolutely nothing that could describe me better.
I feel alive, although sometimes I try to burn out the beautiful things around me, if I place too much importance on something that shouldn't be. I focus on something else and don't see the beauty, but then I can come back to myself and surprisingly, that fire didn't burn the beauty, but made it even more special.
Today is another sad day, but I took the opportunity to write and I know that it will be a good opportunity to look around me and find this beauty that I think I have lost.
I set fire to something that never burns, but I couldn't destroy those flowers that are still at home.
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by emotions and I just want to let it all go away, but with time I realized that the only way I can feel better is to face them. If I'm sad I have to live that sadness and if I need to cry I need to do it.
I took this picture several weeks ago and I think it's one of my favorites of the last year, I was afraid to share it because even though it's not my face, it's absolutely one of the most honest self-portraits I could take. I never thought that fire could be my element, but in the last year there is absolutely nothing that could describe me better.
I feel alive, although sometimes I try to burn out the beautiful things around me, if I place too much importance on something that shouldn't be. I focus on something else and don't see the beauty, but then I can come back to myself and surprisingly, that fire didn't burn the beauty, but made it even more special.
Today is another sad day, but I took the opportunity to write and I know that it will be a good opportunity to look around me and find this beauty that I think I have lost.
